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natalieexu
To the boy i love
This is a letter for the boy I love. I know you will never see this but I am trying to heal and I can only hope that one day you’ll look back and feel the same.
Dear Chris,
We spent what would be almost 4.5 years together from 02/05/14.
I loved and still love you with all my heart. I thought you were the one. On Saturday 18/08/18 my world came crashing down. You ended our relationship. My happiness was no more.
6 days later today, my feelings have not changed. I still want you back. I came to you for closure. you gave your reasons and I can understand why but yet I can’t wonder what more I could I have done. I keep replaying the times I should’ve been better to you. I didn’t give you the support in your career that you seeked.. i just always thought I was doing the right thing.
You said your birthday was breaking point. I thought I did the right thing by spending it together. That’s what you’ve always wanted - you told me you never liked big things. You have such great friends for wanting to do something for you and organizing something for you.. I wish it could’ve been me that organized it but I didn’t think that was what you wanted. I wish i could go back and change it.
You were not only my partner in life but you were my best friend and rock. I have lost everything. I miss you like crazy. From the day I met you, I was hesitant. I pushed through my parent’s desire for me not to jump into a relationship because I was in love with you and saw a future with you. I still do..
I wish you could’ve opened up to me like last year. Last year when you voiced that I wasn’t supportive of your BusinessOne society. I understood and fixed it because it made you happy and I could see where I went wrong. I thought everything was going well. I gave you space to work on your job applications. I should have been more hands on.
I know you say it comes down to the fundamentals. But sometimes I know I behave spoilt. You kept me in line. It’s all about the fun of working it out. Opposites attract right? Yes we have different upbringings, yes we have different careers. But that’s what support is. We work through things together..
I am unbelievably proud of how far you have come and it hurts that I can’t be your number 1 cheerleader anymore.
I just want you back.. I love you with all my heart. Not because you were my first for everything but because I genuinely saw a future with you and still love you. I wish I could turn time back and do it all over again. I love you so much Christopher.
l still wish you all the best and maybe one day if its meant to be, it will be…
I stilI love you and always will..
natalie x